Why am I always the unfortunate one when it comes to love?
......"putting yourself before someone" well no one knows that one better than me. Though somehow he always missed out on that. They say when you do good you're not supposed to speak of it. It really makes me question do actions really speak louder than words? Because apparently in my case it never does.
This year should've been devoted to my exam solely. Ahh but wait! the universe had a plan for me and that was to screw my life again because I wasn't traumatized enough. Throughout the relationship its always been me doing everything. I had to be up till 4 to make up for all the missed classes I mean what more of a sacrifice do you need? Instead, he tells me "I used to love you." ...... Wake up call dude, that's not what you said the day before. This dude didn't even have the balls do break up in person. Gosh! What a pussy.
Still remember all the back and forth I had to do at the mall just to get a valentines basket made. This dude came empty handed FYI, couldn't have plucked a flower even. But that's ok as long as he had the money to buy weed next day. I'm pretty sure though if it was his ex he would've planned the best for her because I was just a side chick he used to get over her. I don't regret it though because when he had no one I was there for him.
......So am I just a fool or am I looking in the wrong place?
Truth is I don't know. Maybe a little bit of both. As far as I'm concerned the old me can suck it because c'est la vie and you can't just let some pussy come by and ruin it for you.
......"putting yourself before someone" well no one knows that one better than me. Though somehow he always missed out on that. They say when you do good you're not supposed to speak of it. It really makes me question do actions really speak louder than words? Because apparently in my case it never does.
This year should've been devoted to my exam solely. Ahh but wait! the universe had a plan for me and that was to screw my life again because I wasn't traumatized enough. Throughout the relationship its always been me doing everything. I had to be up till 4 to make up for all the missed classes I mean what more of a sacrifice do you need? Instead, he tells me "I used to love you." ...... Wake up call dude, that's not what you said the day before. This dude didn't even have the balls do break up in person. Gosh! What a pussy.
Still remember all the back and forth I had to do at the mall just to get a valentines basket made. This dude came empty handed FYI, couldn't have plucked a flower even. But that's ok as long as he had the money to buy weed next day. I'm pretty sure though if it was his ex he would've planned the best for her because I was just a side chick he used to get over her. I don't regret it though because when he had no one I was there for him.
......So am I just a fool or am I looking in the wrong place?
Truth is I don't know. Maybe a little bit of both. As far as I'm concerned the old me can suck it because c'est la vie and you can't just let some pussy come by and ruin it for you.
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